Dream Journal

2024-10-5

My partner turned into an ant and was being harassed by other ants. I was trying to keep them safe by building a little island with water in a plastic container and they kept falling into the water, and then I finally realized I could just put them in a jar. I looked around for a jar and found one, but it was filled with coins. I put them in it anyways because I was panicking. I couldn't find them in the jar after a while so I dumped out the contents and was freaking out because I still couldn't find them, so I tried to lure them out with incorrect Pokemon facts.

2024-10-5

I'm organizing the fridge in the kitchen when I hear that my dad has come over to visit, and he's talking to my mom. Eventually the topic turned to me, and they talk about how useless I am. I get mad and yell, "I can hear you, you know," and they stop. I storm back to my room, avoiding them.

Inside my room there're a bunch of boxes and a tall, skinny girl with a pixie cut on my computer. I see an unfamiliar wallpaper on the monitor and ask her if she actually made a guest account on my computer, and she says yeah. I tell her not to download anything, and she says okay. I look over to my closet and see the door open with some of my things disheveled, and I ask her what happened, and she says she got curious. I look around at the boxes and ask if these things are my old things. She doesn't know. I start looking through them and they're not my old things at all, just a bunch of junk and I'm annoyed that my family will have to throw these away later. It's all a bunch of paper, textbooks, and ugly paintings.

My dad comes in while I'm sitting on the ground flipping through a very strange, technical textbook that I don't understand, and he stands over me and criticizes me for always lazing around and not doing anything, saying that my nose is always in a book. I feel ashamed because this was in front of the girl on my computer, and then he leaves. I look through the boxes more and find an old laptop from the 80s. It has a lot of strange compartments, and even a mini vacuum cleaner designed to clean the laptop. I clean it up and look at it from all over, deciding that I'll keep it.

2024-10-4

I was at my overseas family's house again. There were a lot of creepers that kept coming from upstairs. I was trying to avoid them so they wouldn't explode and damage the house. My movements were weird and clunky, and I was stressed. They kept exploding.

2024-09-05

There's a war going on. It's sunset or something, and I'm a teenager and back at my grandparent's house in America, and I'm eating snacks and walking around the house while my dad gets ready for us to leave. There are a lot of skinned animals, and there are two rats. One of the rats has amputated tail and is really mean and often fights and tears at the skin of the other rat. The screech whenever they fight terrifies me. My family is about to leave, and we take the mean rat along because the weak one is dying or already dead. I hold her, and she's small and not aggressive towards humans.

I end up at my old elementary school alone with nobody in my family and no rat. I'm around 20 to 23 years old. The school had already been caught by the enemy and the people inside are being held hostage. I make my way down an L-shaped part of a building, and there's a group of civilians huddled in the corner where the two halls connect and a group of enemy soldiers watching them with guns at the other end. The hallway I'm in has classrooms and everyone is instructed to stay in their respective classrooms unless they're sitting in the corner, being watched.

Since the soldiers could not see me, being at the end of the other hall, I enter each classroom for a bit, seeing how everyone was doing, before joining the group at the corner, being seen by the soldiers.

Eventually I slip away off to the side, back into the hallway where the classrooms were. A girl joins me but she gets grazed by a dart. We both slip into a classroom and I help her clean the wound, but she's worried about whether the dart is poisoned. I try to comfort her, and it works. She leaves the room later, and I don't see her again.

I sit down at a desk to pretend I'm a student, and I decide that I'm not convincing enough, and I'd probably get killed, so I better hide in a cabinet or something when the soldiers finally decide to check on the classrooms.

Eventually, the soldiers make an announcement saying that everyone who entered the school and wasn't originally part of the school needed to leave. Me and a girl in the same classroom both start to leave and she hesitates but ultimately still decides to go, although crying. I slip out from behind the crowd to avoid any possible gunfire and leave through the door and into the night.

Once outside, everyone breaks into a run and scatters. Somewhere, something detonates. Maybe it was the ground near me, somewhere far away, or maybe it was my own body. I don't know, but I wake up with my heart racing.

2024-08-24

We were both fully clothed, but my partner and I were "messing around", and I think I asked them to hit me. They hit me several times, punching my back, and I had an orgasm just from that. Embarrassed, I told them that I came, and they said they could tell.

2024-07-11

It was nighttime at my childhood home and my father came by. He and my mom were talking, and I was also outside, minding my own business. Eventually, my dad did and said something that hurt my feelings and pissed me off, so I screamed at him to never come back.

He got into his car to leave but he stayed around to tease me, driving in circles and laughing at me. I had enough so I began to run and chase him while holding a water bottle.

Somehow I was able to catch up to him, and he jumped out of the car, laughing and running away from me. I flung water all over the car and tried to get it on him. He evaded my attempts like it was nothing while giggling. His smiles and laughter were infuriating, but somehow contagious. I tried not to smile and laugh along, but I failed, much to my embarrassment.

Eventually, he ran away. I kept flinging water on his car and opened the doors to coat all of the seats and dashboard in water. I ran out of water but I got some from the neighbors yard as they listened to Vietnamese music inside their home. I continued to throw water all over the outside and inside of the car until I was satisfied and walked home.

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In my house was a party of some sort. A group invites me to play cards with them, so I sit down and they dealt cards. The game was too complicated and not really fun to me, so I check apps and messages on my old phone. Nothing on there, really.

All of a sudden, we hear a commotion outside, and a ton of cars are racing by. The air was strange, and everything felt apocalyptic, so I got scared and hid deep inside the house, in the bathroom. Everyone outside was rushing toward the west.

Lights shone inside the house, and reality flickered. Eventually, the front door of the house became an industrial exit, and people started walking out. I was afraid of it, because it felt like a trap. Like if I walked out, the world would end. I almost walk out the door, but I wait for two suspicious guys to walk out first. They don't, and the door closes. I'm trapped in a single room with them.

I'm not sure what was really going on, but I was trying to fight them, but it was useless. At this point I'd been in the room with them for a while. They easily overpowered me, and they only entertain fighting me because it's fun for them. At one point one of the guys pins me down hard and then starts to rape me. I wake up to my partner shaking my boob.

2024-06-24

I was in a room filled with people I knew, and I needed to confess something. I confessed that [name of someone in my past] sodomized me. The person in charge, who saw and knew everything, backed up my statement, and everyone was surprised but it felt like nobody really cared. I had to iterate to everyone that I was talking casually about the whole thing because it wasn't the first time it happened, so, um, it wasn't really that traumatizing, but it really did happen. Haha, please believe me. It was awkward. Nobody cared.

2024-6-20

I slid down a slide with my dad, and he was holding me from behind. It felt like nothing else mattered. He whispered in my ear that while I was useless, I was still special to him and that he loved me. I smiled, feeling warm and happy. Later, I sat on a couch while my relatives held a party. I sat there dissociating, since I couldn't believe what happened with my dad earlier. I was waiting to be with him again.

Everything starts to fade, and I begin to wake up but I'm stuck in paralysis. I imagine lying in bed but body parts are weird and moving in bad ways. Someone is grabbing at me. I try to wake myself up by screaming, flailing, anything. But I'm trapped and scared and seeing things. I eventually make a noise and wake up, thinking I see my partner sitting up because I see an eye looking at me. But then I see that they've been laying next to me the whole time.

2024-05-23

I was on a sports team, and while waiting for our turn I was overhearing my teammates talk about mental health and their struggles with it. "How do you do it?" someone asked another. "Medication," the person answered, and everyone laughed. I listened from a few rows down on the bleachers, since I was forced to sit away from everyone because there was no room.

2024-04-27

I pulled a parasite from underneath my skin at my eyebrow. The parasite was the reason why I couldn't write or do anything else creative.

2024-04-05

I was sleeping in my bed in the same position that I feel asleep in. I was on my side, holding my stuffed animal. I heard my mom telling my brother to wake me up over in the next room, then I heard my door open. There was very quiet rustling. There'd be moving, then silence, then moving, and silence again. It took a long time for the person to get close to me.

I was sleeping, but I was aware of what was going on. I felt my pillows and sheets rustle and being moved. I wondered if it was my dad and got so excited that it hurt. Then I heard my mom's voice, muffled, and I became very disappointed. I wanted the thought of my dad to linger, but I felt my bed shift, then get pulled towards my bathroom door. I was sleeping and couldn't move. I hear the door close. Then I hear rustling in my room. They're trying to clean my room.

Eventually my mom tries to wake me up, and she shakes me but I can't wake up, move, or make a noise. She shakes harder, and I hear her muffled voice speak louder, I start getting scared. I was trying to move but I couldn't. I felt hands against my head and face, and I panicked. I was able to move a little and cry out, but it wasn't enough. I could feel my mom freaking out too but she wasn't helping, she just kept shaking me. I kept trying to move while making scared noises because I couldn't speak, and finally I wake up enough to tell her I'm awake. I sit up and see that it's really late, like 6pm, and the sun has set. She walks off like nothing happened. I wake up for real, in the exact same sleeping position I started out in my dream.

2024-03-28

There was an evil baby child thing on the loose with two victims and I was one of them. We both awoke naked on a train with bombs near us. This happened at separate times, I think. I was the most recent victim. I forgot what happened, but I remember feeling like I needed to protect the child even though they were evil. They were also naked, but like in a scary way?

In the end, I found the rest of my group, who I was supposed to be with. We were in a store that sold costumes and I was embarrassed about being naked, and I wanted people to help me get clothes. Nobody helped me, but they didn't blame me for being naked since they knew what happened. The clothes I put on were too small, but I wore them anyways.

2024-03-27

I had a dream about animals in a car together. The dream was like a children's movie. It was boring. At the end, there were zombies and they were about the kill the main cast, who almost drove away in the car from the garage they were in. I got left behind and died on the pavement still inside the garage. The garage started to flood and I started floating.

I floated down a primal sea. I was face down and could breathe in the water. Without swimming, I was moving somewhere. The ocean told me it wasn't a scary place, but a happy one. The deepest parts weren't dark, they had many others living there. I was excited to go. I told the ocean that I'll visit, and it'll be a great place to draw for a bit then I'll hide away again, because it seemed quite lively down there. Along the way, the ocean showed me a pair of sea horses. One light one, one dark one. It told me that they're siblings and shared a room at the place we were headed to. I thought it was cute. The ocean tried to move me closer. It felt like it wanted me to make friends, but I was shy.

Later, the ocean showed me a dolphin with the markings of an orca. The dolphin spoke to me in the form of a visual novel with a UI that looked like a 90s children's PC game. It asked me an innocent question. I forgot what it was. Maybe it was something along the lines of what I'll do when I get there. It was friendly. The ocean said, "It's your turn," and the UI opened up a window for me to type in. I was afraid to say something bad, and I involuntarily typed, "I'm going to kill you." I was so scared at what I had said. I jumped back from what was now a laptop and panicked. I don't think I ever saw the dolphin's response.

I woke back up in the garage I was left at in the previous dream.

2024-03-25

I was a little pig in a group of other little pigs who were doing work. We had tasks and were led by an adult pig who was our caretaker. Our days and time were broken up by activity. Our first one was where we were working at a food place. We all had partners who gave us food that we had to deliver to someone in the restaurant. Afterwards, I told the adult pig that my partner was very kind, in hopes they would get treated well. Later, we had free time at home.

2024-03-04

I was a teenager, and my family was together. We were given piles and piles of gifts. I looked outside of the kitchen window, and saw my mom holding a puppy resembling our late dog, and she was talking to a white man. I look around our yard and see many things we haven't bought, such as TVs and animals. I asked my mom how we could have afforded all of this, and she laughed it off. Both of my parents were uncharacteristically talking to others. I realize that our entire house had been relocated to a strange "neighborhood". I felt dread, like something was off.

I met this girl with a heavily tattooed face who was washing the dishes outside. She asked me if she was pretty, and I said, "Yeah." "Despite all of this on my face?" she asked. I said yeah again. She said, "Okay," then I asked her about my house and why we had all of these things, because it was weird. We're poor.

I even showed her the ludicrous gifts we were given. She just giggled. "Didn't you know? You're part of a government incentive. You're being rewarded because a distant cousin of your family never pirated movies up until 2005." I was confused, and asked, "What about the poor people in other countries? Like, if someone in Vietnam never pirated movies either. What about the families that don't even have something like cable TV?" The girl ignored me until I asked another question. "Is this just an American thing?" She shushed me. "The appliances are listening."

I walk away, back into my house. I was about to look out the back door window, until I saw a girl standing there that didn't look like me, but felt like she did. I asked her, "Why do you look like me?" She just smiles. I walk away in a hurry, realizing that I'm now being targeted by the American government and was going to be replaced.

2024-02-10

I was being bullied in school, so I kicked the boys off of the second floor ledge. I felt guilty later.

There was a girl who wanted to be like me, so she planned to gas an entire classroom. I remember thinking, "Damn, what the fuck."

2023-06-09

I was back in high school. There was a competition being held where you shoot and kill your classmates, and they would come back to life. My pet animal was in a box in a corner calmly eating his food, and he would give me an extra life.

2023-05-22

I said "hell yeah" on Neopets and my account immediately got frozen.